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Feelings of love lost

Last night I had a dream about a girl I loved. Let’s call her L.

I don’t remember the details of the dream, only that I saw her; and we were together, at least for a short spell.

When I woke up I could feel the emotions in my chest and stomach. The strongest feelings go much further than the brain.

When I think of her, I feel happiness, joy and love.

But I also feel pain and anxiety when I realise I don’t know her anymore.

I don’t know how, but I can feel all of those things at once. My heart feels joyful, but painful at the same time.

I never connected to romantic stories or poems. They never seemed real. But now I understand something of what the authors may have been feeling.

The shape of her mouth. Her delicate chin. Her eyes staring at me. The time she cried when I wrote her a love letter. The different times we were together.

When I remember any of those moments I feel pressure in my throat and my eyes start to water.

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When we met to break up she already knew which park bench to sit on. Even the last moments are sweet.

Even though there it is pain and sadness I am grateful. It’s in this that I can find the beauty of the experience. She is one of my most precious memories. Thank you, L for sharing a small part of your life with me.

When we first met, we went out a few times. I was shy. I remember telling her I couldn’t believe I was so lucky to date her. She told me to come closer. She surprised me with a kiss.

I hope she is happy. I think she met someone else. I hope he takes good care of her.

I hope too that I will experience love again.

7 replies on “Feelings of love lost”

Hi Stephanie, Thank you so much, it’s warming to know that my feelings and experience can reasonate with others – I appreciate your comment. And I am glad you like the photos; motivation to take more 🙂

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